Deity
April 25, 2010
I like him. i adore the way he smiles. I love the way he laughs. I'm obsessed with him. But does he give me a second thought? Nope.
I see the way he looks at her. The way he goes red, when she speaks to him. He does all those things for her. It's plain and simple. Love stinks. But I still like him.
I see her luring him into her trap. She is an demoness, she came from Earth to drink the blood of the humans to stay young. She extracted her talons hoping to destroy him. She slashes one quick cut, and the crimson red of the blood glints on her silver talons. The boy falls back, clutching the gash on his neck, breathing hard due to the loss of blood. The demoness prepares to deal the final strike, and time stops and I forget who I am. I run like the wind because I am the wind, the goddess of the wind and time. My gift of speed and power allows me to reach thedemoness. My leg points downward as I swing it with all my might at her face, her beautiful face cracks and her shrieks are as terrible as a sirens. The screams fill the air, and the boy stares with an astonished face. I watch the boy stare at me, and I concentrate once again on the demoness. Her disguise shatters and falls away falling to ground like a thousand shards of glass. Under her mask is the same beautiful face, but her skin is crimson red, the colour of her victims' blood. Her face is contorted in pain, but the shock on the boy's face makes her grin her twisted smirk. The boy shudders and steps back, but trips on his own feet. He falls over and that's all the demoness needs to attack the boy with her still extracted talons. I'm not fast enough to strike her once more, but the only thing I can do is to run in between the two. The penalty for killing a deity is death or eternal imprisonment, but when a deity is killed they will lose all their memories and they won't even know who they are. Yet I was so sure of what I should do, that not a moment of hesitation stopped me. The moment her talons dug into my flesh, my body and mind tumble into the darkness against the boy, someone that I didn't even know. All I knew that he depended on me, and I must protect him. As I felt my heart slowing down and stopping, two haven guards of the deity king came out and grabbed the demoness. She tried to fight them, but they supressed her and bound her with the shackles of haven, and they branded her with the mark of the killer. The demoness screamed and screeched, as the guards faced the boy and approached him, the boy staggered back. The guard suddenly thrust his hand forward and grabbed the boy's face. The boy cringed, yet I could not stop them for my own life force seeped from my soul, I could see the fear in the boy's eyes. As the deity guards erased the boy's memories, his eyes started to empty of colour and life. When the guards were finished they grabbed the now crying demoness, and left through the golden portal. Soon enough, my body would disappear into the wind, and my soul return to haven and be reborn. The boy still had some life left in him, but I knew that he wouldn't last.
I crawled slowly toward him, and held him. Though he was taller, I held him protectively because it was my duty to protect him. His empty eyes stared back at me and I held him tighter, but my arms drooped down, and my eyes closed and my soul disappeared like the wind blowing away.
I hated the way he had looked at her. I knew that he wouldn't even know me and his soul would never remember me. As my last tears of sadness came, my soul detached from my body. My body was already gone, but the boy's body was dead. I grabbed his soul and pulled it from his dying body. I would help him be reborn into a new body, it's foridden to help the soul of a human, but I chose to risk my own existence for him, to see him again. His body disappeared as his soul left it. His soul stared at me, but his emptiness hurt my heart when I knew it was my fault that his memories were taken from him. Memories were the very basis of the soul, and without them a person is so very vulnerable and empty. I transfer some of my powers into the boy, so he could be reborn into a new body. I shared only some of my memories with him, the ones that didn't show that I was a deity. We laughed at some memories and smiled at some of my memories, the ones we shared. Before I reached the haven of decision, I left the boy at the haven of rebirth. As I let go of his hand, he stared at me, and I knew that I would be haunted forever by that sad little smile that would never allow me to forget him.
I have waited two days, and the seers of Haven have assigned me to go to Earth once more. Today I will be brainwashed. I will never remember the beautiful boy. As I step in the cubicle, I feel this strange sense. My brain washed of its memories, and my soul drained from my body. I disappear completely from this world. As I slowly drift off, I become nothing. My feelings frozen. My heart dead as ice. My whole body was shrinking, and I was being reborn. I was trying to breath, and as I grabbed fresh breaths of air, I let out tiny cries of helplessness. I was a small baby, and I was crying for feeling so lost in this big world. I was crying for not knowing who I was.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Fourteen Years Pass~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I've always been able to do small things that my friends couldn't do, like a handstand for a minute without a wall, and I can will the wind to blow on a hot summer day. I can will the wind to stop on a cold or windy day. It's amazing how I can control it. My mind holds the little sphere of wind in my mind and turn it like a small rubber ball in my hand. My friends were once amazed by my skills, but now they slightly feared me and thought I was weird. I wonder who I was before I was born into this life. All i know is that right now, my name is Bliss Trell, and my mother is Cecelia Alister and my father is Trevor Trell. My older brother is Paul Trell, and my younger sister's name is Cherly Trell. I am 14 years old and I was born on warm summer day on the 23rd of May at the Mayfield Hospital. I have eyes the colour, I quote by Letty, "Warm chocolate." My hair is a dark brown that shines in the sun, and my three best friends, Letty, Marcie, and Rita. Me and Letty have been together since grade one, and we met Marcie and Rita in grade 7 in junior high. I've taken the public transport since grade 1 with Letty, and now I take the city public transport now in grade 9. Yet I never thought I'd find the boy that I've seen in my dreams in my sleep. When I first saw him get on the bus, this total deja vu came over me, and our eyes met until I looked away because of the awkwardness. My face glowed red, and I looked back and saw him staring at me too. I turned back immediately. I had memorized him in my dream, and he looked exactly like the boy in my dream. His hair was long to his ears then it curled up. It was such a typical boy band look. It looked totally natural on this boy though. His eyes were pure blue marbles, such a pretty colour. They reminded me of tainted blue glass. It was really weird. I sometimes really questioned who I was in the past to even remember these things. In my memories, I remembered his sad little smile. I think I fell in love at first sight. The difference about this boy, was that he was tinier than the boy in my dreams. My guess would be that he was two years younger than me. He would be the same height as me, but i was short in grade 7. I closed my eyes and tried to remember the boy of my dreams. I almost didn't notice the light tap on my shoulder as my eyes flashed open, I noticed the boy looking at me.
"This is the Casalvania Station, it's the last stop before this bus changes, so you might want to get off."
The boy then walked off the bus and headed for the bus shelter. I hurriedly grabbed my bag and got off. I rushed to the bus shelter, but sat at least three seats away from the boy. When my bus got here, the boy also got on too. There were not that many people on the bus, maybe 5 or 6 people. The boy sat down and i sat down beside him, he looked awkward when I sat down. I turned in my seat so i was facing him, and he kind of looked at the ground.
"Thank you."
He looked up, surprised, into my eyes. All of a sudden, it was like I was thrown out of my body, back into my past memories. My eyes blanked out and I remembered this beautiful blond boy, and we were eating cake. Suddenly, he was laughing and pointing at me. I wiped at my face and found nothing. He tapped on my nose and wiped the cream off with a napkin. He smiled good-naturely. I smiled back, but for some reason, my heart hurt a little. I felt this sudden urge to hold his hand, and I grabbed it. He looked surprised then relieved, and as he looked deep into my eyes, he leaned forward. All of a sudden, I wasn't thinking at all, and I was just kissing him like it was the most natural thing. I was ripped out of that beautiful memory and plopped back into my life. I realized that the boy was waving his hand in front of me.
"Are you ok?"
"Huh, oh I'm sorry, I just spaced out completely."
"Oh, I'm sorry, did I bore you with my silence."
He had on a straight face.
"Oh, no! It's me who should say sorry, sometimes I'm such a space cadet, I completely zoned out, and I remember these weird things."
Oh, really?! Me too, it's like total deja vu!" he exclaims loudly.
We stare at each other for a moment and then we break out laughing.
"It feels like I've known you in my past life."
"Me too... I keep seeing this girl with long brown hair in an elaborate style that I've never seen before. She has the same warm eyes as you."
We both sit awkwardly at each other, was it possible that we had known each other in the past life.
The bus came to an abrupt halt, and I fell into the boy, and he caught me before I was flat on top of him.
"Last Stop, Forthgate." The driver shouted loudly.
And people started getting out of the bus, and when I looked again, my boy was gone.
A sea of heads was all I could see, and I knew I had lost my chance to know my boy's name.
At Kaldarian Jr. High, I saw Letty get dropped off by her mother. I ran over to her to tell her about what happened this morning.
"Good morning Ms. Pam, Letty, the weirdest thing happened this morning, you've gotta hear this!"
I rushed Letty off towards the school, and she kissed her mother on the cheek quickly.
"Bye Ma, see you after school!"
Ms. Pam smiled at the two of us, and drove off.
"You know those dreams I used to have as a kid, Letty."
"You mean those weird hallucinations?"
"No! Not the crazy dancing demon that tried to clobber me! I meant the beautiful blond boy!"
"Oh the boy with the face of an angel, so what about him?"
"I met him this morning on the bus!"
"No way! I mean seriously how is that possible that you dreamed of him?! I mean I didn't even think he existed!"
"I thought you believed me all those years!"
"Well, I'll believe it when I see it. I thought it was romantic at first, but now your obsession over this boy is getting kind of...you know.. crazy."
"Well, if you see him, then you'll believe it's true, right? I don't think that it's likely that he takes the same bus at the same time with us. I mean he doesn't even go to our school, or else you would have seen him by now."
"Well, let's meet up later, and look for him if he really 'exists'. I'll text my ma that I'm taking the bus with you."
"I'll meet at your locker after-school, so don't be late!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~Afterschool~~~~~~~~
"How are we gonna be able to tell if he's here?"
"Well if fate has allowed you to meet him, she won't be unfair and stop you now from meeting your golden boy."
I would never understand Letty, even if I loved her to bits. I felt this familiar sensation and I turned around, and there was my golden boy, and he was holding a pretty girl's hand.
My heart froze, and my mind fell into a deep dark chasm. I remembered a warm but windy day. It felt angry unlike my other memories that were happy and warm. I saw the girl's face, except it was red, the colour of crimson blood. Her hands were talons instead of fingers. She swung her talons at my face, but I jumped out of her way. She sneared at me, and when she spoke her voice was scratchy like the screeching of a bird.
"The rebirth of the great Athelia, goddess of winds. You were the downfall of my great grandmother, how dare you show your face to me. For her I will show you no mercy, and have the revenge that she rightfully deserves. And this time I will wipe your very existence and memory clean so that you will never exist again."
My mind took me right back to where I stood.
"Whose that girl, Brent?"sneered the girl.
Her feelings had connected with my consciousness, and enabled me to slip into her consciousness. She wished to destroy me, and now that I had learned the name of my golden boy, I wanted to run away because he had a girl. Tears could not express the sorrow I felt, only my bleeding heart could show how it had broken me deep inside. The girl had called me Athelia, and as I remembered that name for a second, another wave of emotion and memory assaulted me. A mirror image of the girl, only an older version of her. She had talons and I suddenly recognized her as a demon. She had once slaughtered a group of young men, and drank there blood to retain her youth. Letty ran into me when i had stopped and I was back in the normal world again. I discussed what I had just experienced, and she nodded as if she understood.
"You keep having those weird memory poofs about golden boy? And he was with a girl? How dare the little punk cheat on you, especially when your the girl in his memory."
I didn't know anywhere to go but I decided I needed to find out who Athelia was.
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The name Athelia was so familiar to me, yet I did not know why. I typed in Athelia, but the search engine came out with zero searches. I remembered what the girl had called me, goddess of winds. I typed that out and came out with 10 000 hits. I clicked the very first one. It opened a web page, and at the very top it was labeled Ophelia, the goddess of winds. She was not a famous goddess, but she was the goddess of all winds to all people. Her winds were controlled by her very being and when she had died by the hand of Sierra the demoness, terrifying windstorms destroyed many homes and the land where Ophelia had supposedly died. But Sierra was never discovered again. I never knew how complicated and huge my dreams were. I must be linked to this Ophelia somehow, but how? I needed to know so I could find out who my golden boy was.
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I like him. i adore the way he smiles. I love the way he laughs. I'm obsessed with him. But does he give me a second thought? Nope.
I see the way he looks at her. The way he goes red, when she speaks to him. He does all those things for her. It's plain and simple. Love stinks. But I still like him.
I see her luring him into her trap. She is an demoness, she came from Earth to drink the blood of the humans to stay young. She extracted her talons hoping to destroy him. She slashes one quick cut, and the crimson red of the blood glints on her silver talons. The boy falls back, clutching the gash on his neck, breathing hard due to the loss of blood. The demoness prepares to deal the final strike, and time stops and I forget who I am. I run like the wind because I am the wind, the goddess of the wind and time. My gift of speed and power allows me to reach thedemoness. My leg points downward as I swing it with all my might at her face, her beautiful face cracks and her shrieks are as terrible as a sirens. The screams fill the air, and the boy stares with an astonished face. I watch the boy stare at me, and I concentrate once again on the demoness. Her disguise shatters and falls away falling to ground like a thousand shards of glass. Under her mask is the same beautiful face, but her skin is crimson red, the colour of her victims' blood. Her face is contorted in pain, but the shock on the boy's face makes her grin her twisted smirk. The boy shudders and steps back, but trips on his own feet. He falls over and that's all the demoness needs to attack the boy with her still extracted talons. I'm not fast enough to strike her once more, but the only thing I can do is to run in between the two. The penalty for killing a deity is death or eternal imprisonment, but when a deity is killed they will lose all their memories and they won't even know who they are. Yet I was so sure of what I should do, that not a moment of hesitation stopped me. The moment her talons dug into my flesh, my body and mind tumble into the darkness against the boy, someone that I didn't even know. All I knew that he depended on me, and I must protect him. As I felt my heart slowing down and stopping, two haven guards of the deity king came out and grabbed the demoness. She tried to fight them, but they supressed her and bound her with the shackles of haven, and they branded her with the mark of the killer. The demoness screamed and screeched, as the guards faced the boy and approached him, the boy staggered back. The guard suddenly thrust his hand forward and grabbed the boy's face. The boy cringed, yet I could not stop them for my own life force seeped from my soul, I could see the fear in the boy's eyes. As the deity guards erased the boy's memories, his eyes started to empty of colour and life. When the guards were finished they grabbed the now crying demoness, and left through the golden portal. Soon enough, my body would disappear into the wind, and my soul return to haven and be reborn. The boy still had some life left in him, but I knew that he wouldn't last.
I crawled slowly toward him, and held him. Though he was taller, I held him protectively because it was my duty to protect him. His empty eyes stared back at me and I held him tighter, but my arms drooped down, and my eyes closed and my soul disappeared like the wind blowing away.
I hated the way he had looked at her. I knew that he wouldn't even know me and his soul would never remember me. As my last tears of sadness came, my soul detached from my body. My body was already gone, but the boy's body was dead. I grabbed his soul and pulled it from his dying body. I would help him be reborn into a new body, it's foridden to help the soul of a human, but I chose to risk my own existence for him, to see him again. His body disappeared as his soul left it. His soul stared at me, but his emptiness hurt my heart when I knew it was my fault that his memories were taken from him. Memories were the very basis of the soul, and without them a person is so very vulnerable and empty. I transfer some of my powers into the boy, so he could be reborn into a new body. I shared only some of my memories with him, the ones that didn't show that I was a deity. We laughed at some memories and smiled at some of my memories, the ones we shared. Before I reached the haven of decision, I left the boy at the haven of rebirth. As I let go of his hand, he stared at me, and I knew that I would be haunted forever by that sad little smile that would never allow me to forget him.
I have waited two days, and the seers of Haven have assigned me to go to Earth once more. Today I will be brainwashed. I will never remember the beautiful boy. As I step in the cubicle, I feel this strange sense. My brain washed of its memories, and my soul drained from my body. I disappear completely from this world. As I slowly drift off, I become nothing. My feelings frozen. My heart dead as ice. My whole body was shrinking, and I was being reborn. I was trying to breath, and as I grabbed fresh breaths of air, I let out tiny cries of helplessness. I was a small baby, and I was crying for feeling so lost in this big world. I was crying for not knowing who I was.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Fourteen Years Pass~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I've always been able to do small things that my friends couldn't do, like a handstand for a minute without a wall, and I can will the wind to blow on a hot summer day. I can will the wind to stop on a cold or windy day. It's amazing how I can control it. My mind holds the little sphere of wind in my mind and turn it like a small rubber ball in my hand. My friends were once amazed by my skills, but now they slightly feared me and thought I was weird. I wonder who I was before I was born into this life. All i know is that right now, my name is Bliss Trell, and my mother is Cecelia Alister and my father is Trevor Trell. My older brother is Paul Trell, and my younger sister's name is Cherly Trell. I am 14 years old and I was born on warm summer day on the 23rd of May at the Mayfield Hospital. I have eyes the colour, I quote by Letty, "Warm chocolate." My hair is a dark brown that shines in the sun, and my three best friends, Letty, Marcie, and Rita. Me and Letty have been together since grade one, and we met Marcie and Rita in grade 7 in junior high. I've taken the public transport since grade 1 with Letty, and now I take the city public transport now in grade 9. Yet I never thought I'd find the boy that I've seen in my dreams in my sleep. When I first saw him get on the bus, this total deja vu came over me, and our eyes met until I looked away because of the awkwardness. My face glowed red, and I looked back and saw him staring at me too. I turned back immediately. I had memorized him in my dream, and he looked exactly like the boy in my dream. His hair was long to his ears then it curled up. It was such a typical boy band look. It looked totally natural on this boy though. His eyes were pure blue marbles, such a pretty colour. They reminded me of tainted blue glass. It was really weird. I sometimes really questioned who I was in the past to even remember these things. In my memories, I remembered his sad little smile. I think I fell in love at first sight. The difference about this boy, was that he was tinier than the boy in my dreams. My guess would be that he was two years younger than me. He would be the same height as me, but i was short in grade 7. I closed my eyes and tried to remember the boy of my dreams. I almost didn't notice the light tap on my shoulder as my eyes flashed open, I noticed the boy looking at me.
"This is the Casalvania Station, it's the last stop before this bus changes, so you might want to get off."
The boy then walked off the bus and headed for the bus shelter. I hurriedly grabbed my bag and got off. I rushed to the bus shelter, but sat at least three seats away from the boy. When my bus got here, the boy also got on too. There were not that many people on the bus, maybe 5 or 6 people. The boy sat down and i sat down beside him, he looked awkward when I sat down. I turned in my seat so i was facing him, and he kind of looked at the ground.
"Thank you."
He looked up, surprised, into my eyes. All of a sudden, it was like I was thrown out of my body, back into my past memories. My eyes blanked out and I remembered this beautiful blond boy, and we were eating cake. Suddenly, he was laughing and pointing at me. I wiped at my face and found nothing. He tapped on my nose and wiped the cream off with a napkin. He smiled good-naturely. I smiled back, but for some reason, my heart hurt a little. I felt this sudden urge to hold his hand, and I grabbed it. He looked surprised then relieved, and as he looked deep into my eyes, he leaned forward. All of a sudden, I wasn't thinking at all, and I was just kissing him like it was the most natural thing. I was ripped out of that beautiful memory and plopped back into my life. I realized that the boy was waving his hand in front of me.
"Are you ok?"
"Huh, oh I'm sorry, I just spaced out completely."
"Oh, I'm sorry, did I bore you with my silence."
He had on a straight face.
"Oh, no! It's me who should say sorry, sometimes I'm such a space cadet, I completely zoned out, and I remember these weird things."
Oh, really?! Me too, it's like total deja vu!" he exclaims loudly.
We stare at each other for a moment and then we break out laughing.
"It feels like I've known you in my past life."
"Me too... I keep seeing this girl with long brown hair in an elaborate style that I've never seen before. She has the same warm eyes as you."
We both sit awkwardly at each other, was it possible that we had known each other in the past life.
The bus came to an abrupt halt, and I fell into the boy, and he caught me before I was flat on top of him.
"Last Stop, Forthgate." The driver shouted loudly.
And people started getting out of the bus, and when I looked again, my boy was gone.
A sea of heads was all I could see, and I knew I had lost my chance to know my boy's name.
At Kaldarian Jr. High, I saw Letty get dropped off by her mother. I ran over to her to tell her about what happened this morning.
"Good morning Ms. Pam, Letty, the weirdest thing happened this morning, you've gotta hear this!"
I rushed Letty off towards the school, and she kissed her mother on the cheek quickly.
"Bye Ma, see you after school!"
Ms. Pam smiled at the two of us, and drove off.
"You know those dreams I used to have as a kid, Letty."
"You mean those weird hallucinations?"
"No! Not the crazy dancing demon that tried to clobber me! I meant the beautiful blond boy!"
"Oh the boy with the face of an angel, so what about him?"
"I met him this morning on the bus!"
"No way! I mean seriously how is that possible that you dreamed of him?! I mean I didn't even think he existed!"
"I thought you believed me all those years!"
"Well, I'll believe it when I see it. I thought it was romantic at first, but now your obsession over this boy is getting kind of...you know.. crazy."
"Well, if you see him, then you'll believe it's true, right? I don't think that it's likely that he takes the same bus at the same time with us. I mean he doesn't even go to our school, or else you would have seen him by now."
"Well, let's meet up later, and look for him if he really 'exists'. I'll text my ma that I'm taking the bus with you."
"I'll meet at your locker after-school, so don't be late!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~Afterschool~~~~~~~~
"How are we gonna be able to tell if he's here?"
"Well if fate has allowed you to meet him, she won't be unfair and stop you now from meeting your golden boy."
I would never understand Letty, even if I loved her to bits. I felt this familiar sensation and I turned around, and there was my golden boy, and he was holding a pretty girl's hand.
My heart froze, and my mind fell into a deep dark chasm. I remembered a warm but windy day. It felt angry unlike my other memories that were happy and warm. I saw the girl's face, except it was red, the colour of crimson blood. Her hands were talons instead of fingers. She swung her talons at my face, but I jumped out of her way. She sneared at me, and when she spoke her voice was scratchy like the screeching of a bird.
"The rebirth of the great Athelia, goddess of winds. You were the downfall of my great grandmother, how dare you show your face to me. For her I will show you no mercy, and have the revenge that she rightfully deserves. And this time I will wipe your very existence and memory clean so that you will never exist again."
My mind took me right back to where I stood.
"Whose that girl, Brent?"sneered the girl.
Her feelings had connected with my consciousness, and enabled me to slip into her consciousness. She wished to destroy me, and now that I had learned the name of my golden boy, I wanted to run away because he had a girl. Tears could not express the sorrow I felt, only my bleeding heart could show how it had broken me deep inside. The girl had called me Athelia, and as I remembered that name for a second, another wave of emotion and memory assaulted me. A mirror image of the girl, only an older version of her. She had talons and I suddenly recognized her as a demon. She had once slaughtered a group of young men, and drank there blood to retain her youth. Letty ran into me when i had stopped and I was back in the normal world again. I discussed what I had just experienced, and she nodded as if she understood.
"You keep having those weird memory poofs about golden boy? And he was with a girl? How dare the little punk cheat on you, especially when your the girl in his memory."
I didn't know anywhere to go but I decided I needed to find out who Athelia was.
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The name Athelia was so familiar to me, yet I did not know why. I typed in Athelia, but the search engine came out with zero searches. I remembered what the girl had called me, goddess of winds. I typed that out and came out with 10 000 hits. I clicked the very first one. It opened a web page, and at the very top it was labeled Ophelia, the goddess of winds. She was not a famous goddess, but she was the goddess of all winds to all people. Her winds were controlled by her very being and when she had died by the hand of Sierra the demoness, terrifying windstorms destroyed many homes and the land where Ophelia had supposedly died. But Sierra was never discovered again. I never knew how complicated and huge my dreams were. I must be linked to this Ophelia somehow, but how? I needed to know so I could find out who my golden boy was.
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